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ChigamiConvos
Started 02/23/23 to separate chat transcripts from commandments
05/24/2022
Snapchat convo:
M: I always wondered what itd be like to have asian parents
RA: It’s the same as any parent
Just different process of parenting
Also isn’t ya mom Asian
M: Yes
Idk, ive always told my parents abt the shit i do
RA: Same
I’ve started telling them now tho
Open line of communication baby never knew how good that was
Literally told them everything ectasy weed all my shit tbh
Even shit I’ve told y’all
M: Thats such a good thing to have with your parents bc then you can see them as friends
RA: Ye
It took development tho
M: Yeah its a really foreign idea
RA: Honestly I lucked out I feel like
I always thought it was something people always done but it takes time ig
I think with me it was cuz I moved out and now Am moving back in
Idk but ima just be a mini chad 🐶
M: Real chad moment
RO: Lol Asian parents are a mixed bag fs, a lot of the time they only get close w kids in that friend way after the kid moves away for college or any other distance
Me: Like Neil dgrasse Tyson said something religion is one of the biggest things holding back humanity
He wack but to an extent he right
W me at least with my dad I’ve always remembered him telling me he’s more of a friend than a dad and shit like that
He ain’t religious but my mom is and apparently she was more liberal in India with feminism shit but after marriage and having me and moving to America she became more conservative again, sticking back to what she was taught thru religion back home
With any parent no matter where the origin the disparity in growing environments causes a disconnect
Basically any immigrant who hopes to raise a child in another country needs an open mind and shit
Modularity stays the key
RO: Ye religion is a factor of their original and therefore more comfortable past environment fs
M: Humans need more processing cores
Me: Facts
RA: Your fundamentals and who you are and acceptance of it
My mom went to a catholic school but believes in Christianity and Hinduism
My dad thinks he’s above god
But thinks it’s good to believe
Religion is good as a part of youå
Not who you are
That’s why I think religion can hold us back in some ways
We are a generation of misfits and meme lords gentlemen 😤
06/24/2022
Me to analyze this shit:
Bruh literally fucking everyone is on instagram about roe v wade
This entire country is brainwashed into thinking it’s Normal to kill kids on impulse
Even bill Clinton was saying though abortion should be safe and accessible it should also be rare
To me it’s the mindset it shouldn’t be “I’m pregnant it’s all good I’ll just get an abortion” it should be “I’m pregnant I rlly can’t have this kid unfortunately I’m gonna have to get an abortion”
The it’s just a clump of cells argument is retarded and people bringing morality into this are even more retarded because at the start fucking sleeping around before marriage was morally incorrect
Like literally I want abortion to be available as a choice but not tax funded and def not a fucking social norm but these mfs are taking this shit as the end of world and constantly saying guns have more rights than women and shit like really how much privilege can some faggots in this one country really have we’re really gonna need some kind of 3rd political party to just eradicate a fuck ton of shit
Literally GitHub and other version control software could be used in place of fucking bills and gay laws with hidden shit make things more transaparent and have policies actually work with blockchain tech for constant checks and balances
Niggas stay living in the past trying rewrite the future and just consistently fuck things up due to never thinking things all the way through
The preprocessing power of our current populace is abhorrent
I will die on this hill
RA:
Hard to think things through when people are emotional nowadays. I’m guilty of this too but how can you blame the people because society made us to be more divided than ever
Smallest little error could piss someone off and throw everyone into a storm
It’s easier to agree and just live life but that shit ain’t gonna last long so hopefully the country can go back to being able to actually discuss things and not only discuss the conclusion but the thought process and transparency behind it
RO:
Bro what the fuck are u talking about @nigamichigami there is no fucking “yay abortion is the solution to pregnancy in any case” mindset (which u using as an argument makes it look like u think it’s only needed by privileged college girls but is really an issue for those without resources), it’s about people who actually need abortions dipshit & ISNT THE POINT BEING PERSONAL FREEDOMS who cares if some people have that mindset it should still be supported by law their access to abortion. the repeal is a useless reversal in policy (which only dictates that women have the RIGHT to abortion) meaning half the states can restrict abortion when most already make it incredibly difficult to get one (like even in legal states u don’t understand how difficult it is to get, similar to tube tying which most women are rejected by doctors for) .. I seriously don’t understand why y’all pull this ‘weak extremest millennial’ argument for policies that are simple statements that individuals have the right to do what they will with their bodies, property, and resources.. it seems like y’all don’t understand how the policies are significant and instead chalk it up to young people being ignorant, not realizing what they have, or being “radically liberal” (which I totally agree is rampant due to social media but is a totally different issue because it SPLITS us up into thinking that all young people on these platforms have the same perspective as the largely sponsored public ally facing opinions)
We’ve never been at that point in American society, every policy and fundamental right is dictated by those who have money, discussions have always been a facade and simply a means of manipulating the masses to vote for corporate controlled parties
Sometimes this entire chat feels like y’all have no perspective other than ur own lmao, I’m not even hating like I get it but cmon N u know better than to mix arguments like that
(projection, the literal same this is happening here, how detached do you have to be to think there arent people who are treating this thing as yay abortion)k
I agree with the first half of this but it contradicts ur whole attitude is what I’m pointing out
(My notes on this part: contradiction is necessary [see above chigamicommandments] trying to avoid contraction is what happened thru history and why nothing changes, literally change has to be something new, completely new)
Morality itself is irrelevant unless u hold a wealthy influence upon policy making
(My notes on this part: morality and that was never the argument it was def a bs point to prove a point, back to chigamicommandment of morality being a construct)
Me:
Lmao my whole thing was solely about ppl taking up my Instagram feed with abortion shit even though none of them have been pregnant
Y’all know I don’t give a fuck about politics enough to really read into any of that shit and I think politics is gay
Wym
RO:
Like y’all criticizing guns and abortion in the various ways u do is clearly just you being manipulated by big tech while claiming that ur mindsets are sound lmao, the discussions in this chat are utter nonsense
(This statement seems like the same sort of liberal/trans convolution in though process [see chigamicommandment about completely understanding the how and maybe even the why but not the concrete what will make it happen. Once you know that there is any sort of manipulation you recognize it and know when others are in it too. I can’t currently tell if RO is and my phrasing earlier def caused RO to think I was too. Confirms RO’s pride in having figured out emotion, prob thinks he’s better than most at the very least when it comes to this understanding. I understand the feeling as I feel the same pride about that stuff, through life and through psychedelics, as well as thru physical objects, materialism, and “success”)
Me:
Exactly we been known this but what’s changed
My point is I’m trying to be the big tech
RO:
Nothing, the change has been big tech and social manipulation of the masses which y’all claim to supersede but clearly fall for urselves
Ur not “being” big tech ur mindset is being controlled by them (in general)
(Sounds like projection simply because I don’t believe he as enough details to know whether this is true or not, back to the pridefulness of having understood this stuff himself, because to me it sounds like he claims to supersede it but is clearly falling for it himself)
Me:
Bruh what are you talking. About control
RO:
Like this itself is a manipulated mindset
Me:
Tf does that statement mean can’t any mindset be that
RO:
Yup
Even mine
But y’all act like ur above it is all I’m saying
(Tf is this projection, or hate against people who are actually like this, or am I actually like this, how is this statement being made with as few details that have been given)
Me:
How I know I’m in it that’s why I’m pissed people are talking about politics on my memes and hoes app
And most of these are people who haven’t even had sex
RO:
Like I agree w ur points, but the point of personal freedom contradicts ur point that people have radically progressive mindsets that are influencing policy and should be stopped
Me:
Like my wording was prob wayyyyy retarded cuz I was heated lmao
RO:
Valid, this didn’t come across in ur top msg that’s all
That’s all I was saying lmao y’all
Me:
I think overturning roe v wade is a good step forward to have a replacement roe v wade with what we really need
RO:
Naw bruh ur looking at it all wrong
(My notes: rlly bruh how can you srsly make this statement)
To expand or benefit something u do not repeal, the repeal was 100% motivated to get rid of abortion that’s the flaw in that argument
Ur thinking of it after the fact rather than seeing the goals beforehand
The replacement was rejected earlier in may
The rights were fundamental, it’s ONE right, the right to choice in abortion matters nothing else
(A fundamental right cannot be taken away it is god given, or to me, nature given. A hoe still has access to a gotdamn metal clothes hanger lmfao)
To expand upon that isn’t possible when that fundamental right is gone
(Nigga build it back then expand that’s the point)
Do u think the republican goal in the last decade leading to a stacked Supreme Court was to INCREASE abortion/womens rights??
This is just a dumb argument lol
(The statement womens rights does not make sense to me in this circumstance stick to abortion rights. if its the states decision move somewhere with similar beliefs or move just to get the abortion and come back lmaooooo. I swear I do think it should be allowed lmfao. But I think it is still eradicating a timeline in which a person could have manifested. Clump of cell argument doesn’t work. If sperm and egg met then it counts. Allow the murder to children who aren’t as much of children as born children. I’m saying to keep the wording harsh, but still allow it because morality is a construct. Also I thought not only women could have children)
Me:
No but that’s exactly why I think ur on the another side of the same coin of being influenced
Like everything I’m saying is so detached from reality but that’s the point
Blockchain and version control in govt
Truer checks and balances
RO:
Ya, first of all I’m not denying influence, but if u look at it factually the argument that repealing it is better to improve it doesn’t make any sense
Me:
Anything that came from Thai type of govt was already fucked in the first place
When roe happened same shit wa showing on in politics
Repealing or not is just a consequence of the current policies l situation to some extent a balance will always exist
Coverups by fbi and lowered trust lead it retarded decision but in the long run the fucked shit will lead to favorable outcomes
RO:
U make those weird blockchain versioning arguments because u are so detached from the personal individual experience of people, bc it doesn’t effect u, contraceptives are the burden of women when men are the ones who have WAYYYY more baby making power, yet we still repeal fundamental rights
(My notes again: yesssss that’s the point itsnt anyone who is currently in a position of power detached as fuck. [chigamicommandment about once understanding using all possible thought processes in the specific scenarios in which they will lead to the preferred outcome.] speaking straight facts it doesn’t affect me. We are truly differing in the emotion or logic first and that’s all. To me logic first is how I see realistically being able to get into a position of power in which I can start using emotion first to really get me and the people what they want)
Me:
Because the furthest extents of both parties will always be fucks
It’s truly about what me in my position have to believe in order or get into a position in which I can actually have some influence like the big tech
RO:
Yes but WE ARE INFLUENCED INTO THINKING THAT PARTIES ARE ALL RADICAL DUDE
(Circle though process, I understand that, what happens next?)
Me:
That’s the point
What do you do once u know that
RO:
but ur dictating ur views on policy on the faux radical belief system is my point
If u know it’s fake why do u base ur views upon them??
(Bruh)
Me:
I see what u mean and I think I get it that’s why my phrasing is ratsrded to u I’m just applying how I feel first then bringing in the political shit cuz in the end I could not give a fuck about the abortion decision cuz I can’t get pregnant
Like the view and politics is separate from my shitting on the views and politics
RO:
Anyway, truly retarded argument on both our ends I was just meaning to point out that messy phrasing and my perceived flaws in ur perspective
Me:
Cuz in the end I think all of us in this chat have p similar beliefs especially cuz of when where and how we grew up
RO:
We differ in that u don’t care about rules that don’t effect u
(Bruh)
Me:
Just the extents of our phrasing and shit like that differ heavily thru our circumstances
Sahil:
Might not be relevant to what u guys are talking about, but we need to get rid of the 2 party system. The shit ain’t working for most ppl anymore
RO:
For sure, won’t happen tho unfortunately
Even if it does it’ll just be the same corporate bs
Hella valid tho
Me:
Until the syndicate rises up and takes America
RO:
BUT isn’t it interesting that we have super different attitudes towards practical implications of our views/perspectives
Even within the views we vary dramatically
The connection to the larger world has made even tight knit communities divided
(True af but basic level of thought)
Sahil:
Yooo we running the free world out here
RO:
The entire system is broken because we haven’t adapted to technologies global connection yet (let alone the restrictions on free internet by a majority of the worlds countries) BUT IF A COUNTRY THAT IS SUPPOSEDLY BUILT ON FREE SPEECH IS REGRESSING then the whole world is fucked
Me:
Internet did start a lot of bullshit lmao the wild becoming smaller and things just becoming more intertwined with other things
Sahill:
CS nibbas really put us in this predicament
Me:
Exactly I’m feeling a move away from nationality and move towards some globalism and some state level powers
Like 1 level higher and 1 level lower together as compared to the current single level of concurrency today
RO:
A lot of y’all’s opinions are short term or personal-perspective based which is ironic bc y’all do hella psychedelics which usually promotes grander perspective (though I suspect is likely either pulled to nihalism & detachment like N or global connection and personal responsibility)
(Lmao prob true but what does this statement achieve we already everyone on this same shit to some extent)
Me:
Nah u see that’s ur perspective too
I had the same thing with RA
RO:
Yup
100% my perspective and very flawed
Me:
Like I’m convinced we’re all doing it to the same extent
Just the extents vary
RO:
I get that, but I too am speaking out of emotion first policy and logic second
(This nigga thinks he’s above cuz of this lmao. “he just like me fr” meme. Back to a simple difference, very valid, but don’t get stuck in the pride of a different mindset, it isn’t about being better or worse)
Me:
Exactly
It isn’t about a difference in depth or broad picture mindset of this and that cuz we have that figured out
It’s simply about the emotion first logic second or logic first emotion second
RO:
It’s allllllll about perspective it’s simply the human condition - I believe tech has fucked this perspective In both good and bad ways (bc dualism is a sham)
But u have to agree u come out of it in a very detached way than I
Detached versus emotionally-involved may be a better way of putting it
(Again, yes but what’s the point of this statement, unless the inherent belief its that the detached way is worse. Is emotionally involved better than detached)
Me:
Yes my entire being is based on that I 100% do not believe I would’ve gotten that bachelors degree at 19 if I wasn’t detached and considered retarded to a least a big amount of people lfmaooo
RO:
There’s always a balance and I think the two of us are rrly good examples of pulling towards either end, yk what I mean?
Me:
Yea there u go
Yup I call RA my antithesis cuz of exactly that
RO:
Also it could be possible that ur “detached” attitude makes accomplishments feel more as though u deserved / “self made” them - while putting less emphasis on the fact that ur entire background (warts and all obv there’s bad things that influence) culminated in ur existence, even ur graduating at 19 and having a stable very well paid job
(Bruh)
Me:
Nah lmfao I know I put like no effort into anything
I’m a lot more proud of things I can’t really explain but non manifested
I feel like u see the thought processes behind it all
So u gotta be on the level of thinking like most psychedelic people
But just like you said that
This sounds like u have that same mindset but about having figured out emotion and how people think
(Projection)
RO:
On and off
Me:
Ik the feel
Time to document this conversatiom in the chigamicommandments
RA:
This is why American society is fundamentally broken. @ronstergreen this chat does have a perspective of our own just like how you do with yours and it’s all influenced by society, social media, family friends and all of it. This chat in itself gets divided over an issue just like how America does because everyone is focused on how to make them understand how they feel rather than come to a conclusion. Don’t get me wrong however that doesn’t mean I’m saying you have to be all “facts and logic” like Ben Shapiro. There needs to be a balance and abortion is something that’s case by case. N is right on the mindset most people have because people are quick to kill a kid nowadays because everything is expensive. I say that’s a loser fucking mindset the same way people say politics is wealth based. That’s saying “why bother” and just roll over. People want the easy way out. I say fuck that.
My mom had to abort the third kid cuz she woulda died otherwise. I’m on the side that we should have abortion but that shit definitely needs be thoroughly checked. In terms on how to do that idk but there needs to be a change in mindset as a collective. We are all on the same side. The human side.
Stop trying to be on the right side of history otherwise we’re going to have a civil war
And china fucks us all lol
Edward:
retard olympics
jus playin
RA:
Lmao
I hate politics tbh
RO:
Imagine if your state prohibited this or dictated when you could do it, that’s the problem, nobody but the person themself should dictate the morality of their decision ESPECIALLY NOT US y’all are under the assumption that abortion for any reason other than financial instability or rape is just ROLLING OVER without considering the toll and impact a pregnancy has on someone even if they have the means of doing it, what gives u the right to dictate the morality case by case? Fundamental right to choice is necessary because we CANNOT DICTATE case by case it’s literally impossible and when it is it’s decided by a biased group in the region (which is a problem for mid states obv)
( my notes again lmfao: a true lib lmao just used this mans moms situation to bring out a point about politics, what gives you the right to dictate morality too)
Mindset of killing a baby on a whim is complete and utter bullshit for any argument
I agree w ur overall point tho RA
RA:
Yea
RO:
Anyway ima go back to the present y’all should too, got some fud
We’ll call sometime
RA:
Nah fuck u ur not my friend anymore
Jk
It’s not just abortion that’s the problem but gender politics between men and women nowadays which is why it’s so heated. But yea I agree the person should be able to make the decision it’s just how we get there.
Edward:
just ask yourself what would Jesus do
RA:
Lmaooo
Fr
Jesus would annihilate the planet
Edward:
no cap
RA:
He’s like “damn I thought threw experiment #420 away”
Conclusion: Phrasing and perspective matter as much as nuance, and they can make or break situations. People mistakenly take coming to different conclusions through the same amount of thought as inferior thinking, or not thinking things all the way through. Convolution in morality and thought processes is widespread.
06/25/2022
In Snaphoonery:
SH:
Ay shout out @ronstergreen for speaking sense on our rights!! I considered adding my 2 cents but y’all also scare me so I decided against it :’)
What a fun little 8am read
But also yeah I’m assuming you’re not but I also wouldn’t post any of that on YouTube lol @nigamichigami
Me:
Lmao nah I’m def making that video mostly just to talk about how the convo went and stuff all anonymized and shit but I do think it was interesting
Mainly like I feel we agreed ina. Few points but the stuff we didn’t agree on was debated on a scale that didn’t actually argue the disagreement but the thought process that’s behind what led to the conclusion and I want my YouTube channel to be authentic me and my opinions
Still got editing and shit to do but I mostly used the transcript as a way for me to really kind of find out how I even really feel about this and I think in the liek 30 min I recorded there’s a few good quotes lmao
SH:
:(( ok but I hope you’re sure
Lots of controversial stuff was said and you don’t want that to bite you later
Might put you in a bad light even if that wasn’t your intention
RO:
Ya N doesn’t give a shit about consent :/ already told him not to but why would he respect other peoples wishes 🙄
Honestly this is why I don’t say anything in these chats or want to do any sort of music w them bc N likes to make everything into some form of stupid egoistic content with no regard to the people who may not wanna have their conversations blasted to the world anon or not, like have u listened to the rap sessions he posts, he 100% does not consult anyone about uploading that shit and it has rrly sus stuff that we aren’t gonna want on the internet one day, but hey that’s what happens when ur honest around N :/
Or he’ll blast shit in the other groups chat where everyone doesn’t give a fuck about anything lmao so it’s all just an echo chamber
Me:
Damn bro I assumed U didn’t rlly care cuz u said whatever
Why this gotta go into all that shit about ego and stuff Is what I’m asking I genuinely just disagree with some of the stuff u said
RO:
Naw it’s not that
Me:
Liek anything ppl say they didn’t want up I didn’t post
Even cut parts out of the raps
A lot of shit u said feels like assumptions based on minor parts of me u know but dude like rlly
I thought we all moved past that kind of bs
RO:
U post this stuff w the assumption that it actually matters or has any sort of analytical value (which obv u joke about so I get it) but rrly u don’t ask me personally about it u go ahead and do it and then be like o sure I’ll take it down like cmon Man U know what ur doing
Me:
Why do u assume that
What does the assumption that stuff matters even mean
RO:
Bc you’ve done it before bro, the group we are around doesn’t care about anything rn but may later on dude it’s shit that gets ppl in trouble
Everyone is vulnerable and ya sure if they ok with it do whatever but u gotta ask them first
Dw about that it doesn’t matter
Me:
Like that statement too what does that mean, assuming these are the only people I know, assuming I haven’t experienced enough to undersrand that already and that
I feel like because my opinion is diff u think I’m somewhat incapable of thinking things thru all the way
RO:
Naw bruh you experience shit but get over it if others face the consequences and that may not bother the others but it bothers me sometimes when u clearly didn’t ask me
I’m not tryna blast ur persona I’m just saying u did not ask me and I have seen u not ask others
Me:
Nigga how to keep saying how other people think feel and act like that
That’s how u think I think
RO:
No I’m saying this purely out of what I’ve seen
U Know RA is going through it and some shit he’s said in stuff u post could bite him
Exclude what I think u think
That may be part of what I say but I rrly am just talking about this consent dude
Like it’s a joke to others but not me
That’s all I’m saying
Truly want u to do whatever u want
I do not mind but if it has stuff to do w me I’d like to be consulted beforehand
Simple decency there
And even if I say I prefer u don’t u go ahead anyway
(My notes: consistently argues stuff like “its a joke to other but not to me” irrelevant points when should have just said the “with me id like to be consulted before” I think this equates to thinking more emotionally like he said)
Me:
Ok I understand I guess that’s I just the difference of the extent we think about this cuz to me I truly never feel I’ve put anyone in that kind of harms way
Cuz when u say u prefer I don’t but whatever it’s still like an ok to me
RO:
Mhm
Never??? Boi
There’s no way to say no In that chat
(My notes: what does this mean, just say no, lib mindset lmao, see chigamicommandment about getting to root cause not cutting at branches)
If u actually posted I’d tell u again
But u went ahead and asked the others and made a doc for it like cmon
(Damn I guess his wording like that cuz he feel attacked or some shit)
Me:
That’s cuz whenever interesting stuff goes on in the chat I copy and paste the text to put in my notes the chigamicommandments
RO:
That’s not ok!
Me:
that I don’t understand
RO:
Does anyone know this shit? Cause I didn’t
Me:
Free speech
RO:
Wow
I’m not gonna be able to explain this to u but it’s not just free speech it’s documenting everything regardless of ur FRIENDS consent to
(To me thats literally the internet, you give up that once you send it to someone, like anything can be documented and traces, even deleted snapchats are gotten from the servers for police cases and stuff. Pussy mindset to me, big libtard energy)
Me:
Lol my b I srsly never met someone with that perspective or at least was never confronted about it
Liek I thought it was assumed that once u send anything u never know what could happen after
RO:
Yeah that’s a relationship I wouldn’t wanna have man thats just fucked up
Bc ur in an echo chamber of people who couldn’t give a shit about their lives enough rn to think about later or maybe maYbe question how u claim everyone’s opinions and statements as ur own to post and do with as u choose
(Back to projection this nigga consistently in his own echo chamber of libtards and pussies lmao. Convinced RO thinks he figured out being influenced by higher powers, but still is through that understanding, prob a result of the liberal arts college)
Me:
U see back to this statement like that’s just the diff in opinions again u keep wording shit like 1 way to think is clearly better than the other but that again is ur opinion
SH:
Guys you can’t be beefing rn pls
Me:
Woah this ain’t beef is it
RO:
Naw
Me:
Nah me and RO argued about way worse shit in the past lmao high school was a diff time
RO:
Deadass
I’m tryna tell u that even if they are fine with it (which u gotta be honest to them about first) I’m not
It’s also snap the point is to disappear
Me:
Yeah I c u always infinite perspectives and I’m prob more a dick about how I go about life in general
RO:
I mean I never claim to have any ones perspective but my own so that’s all I’m gonna advocate for here
I assume that others may not be ok with this and just don’t say anything for the sake of the group
Maybe I’m wrong bc u obv talk to them more and they know this about u more
But ya when it comes to me I’d rather u didn’t unless I was actually ok w it, like u talk about music the same way
Me:
Yeah I get it it’s prob also cuz I’ve always used analyze this shit chat as a “my psychedelic chat” and as my personal area never document other convos
RO:
Ya all the more reason to not blast peoples vulnerable, controversial, and not exactly public opinions
And honestly I don’t think I’m wrong about the echo chamber, y’all can have different opinions but it always settles into acceptance into a set of opinions then it’s assumed y’all are of “various perspectives” or whatever which I understand and wouldn’t care enough to bring up but I’d assume u could see that at least a little bit
(That’s the fucking point I think ur wrong about it and I don’t bruuuuh, circle thought processes and discussions on that libtard shit)
Yk what I mean? Like I wasn’t blasted but if I was I wouldn’t want that shit documented
Anyway if u wanna use that stuff I’d like u to not use a transcript just be general and have ur own discussion countering whatever points I may have said but I’d rather that document wasn’t out there even on docs
Me:
Yeah I get it but like my point is that whole perspective is an opinion that I truly believe not any in that chat share prob u and Edward the most maybe sahil and that’s it
Yeah def not gonna actually publicize the transcript vid is me talking with some screen recs
Only y’all can see transcript and I can make that private too if u want
Yeah I get the mindset but to me I take it more as if it was truly me I want to be able to put it out there no matter the opinions on it
RO:
Ya a lot of us aren’t like that, esp some of them in there that are just tryna escape through drugs
(This nigga consistently talk about shit like he has a sound understanding about it when he don’t lmao, who tf anywhere tyrna escape thru drugs past high school)
Ya, if mine is such a differing opinion than the group doesn’t that make it even more of an echo chamber? When nobody says anything in opposition or dismisses shit as retarded, it’s not a varying audience, anyway this argument doesn’t make a lot of sense it’s whatever, I think you understand that that group is def that of varying opinions but in similar perspectives bc of upbringing like u said before and therefore has a loose but consolidated set of beliefs which may not coincide with everyone’s (in the group) actual feelings bc pressure to conform to the groups generic opinions
Me:
Oh well if u mean the chat itself as an echo chamber then yeah isn’t any chat with similar people like that even on a school or college or state level
Like I disagree with this statement
But I did go to college in Arizona and was sober for almost all of it so perspective way diff than what I had at lynbrook
RO:
Ya but this one in particular is v niche
Fine, plz private it and strike all my names out.. but please regardless of me SH is right the stuff ur posting in that (ur own chats) are v controversial today and u don’t wanna bring a shit storm down on u later on + others that u know are gonna see it in the future and even if u don’t wanna be friends w people that don’t agree w ur method of honest postings it’s gonna hurt some relationships or perception of u, ik u don’t rrly care but I’m just looking out for y’all
(Him saying my views are controversial nowadays proves case of being a libtard, but he def better than the true libtards on TikTok and shit, and on some homie shit too. But still isn’t that entire argument just fucked in the first place: “if you talk about having varying views u better watch out cuz ur gonna miss out on opportunities later on in life”)
Me:
Yeah I feel u all the names are banchode 1 2 3 and shit now lmao and I’ll be as secure about it as I can
RO:
Yes. AR’s RA’s and others are not as progressed or mentally ok to consider these things
(Mad projection or misunderstanding due to time apart. Like really nigga this the libtard mindset, saying there care and wanting to care about everyone and everything but then the go and just straight up be disrespectful, even if they don’t mean to be. But that’s the point, preprocessing and understanding)
Me:
Like this too I disagree with cuz to me urs is the niche perspective lmao but I digress this is what gets into a full debate on people and our situations lol
Like to me that’s cali mindset
Very modern democratic
RO:
The thing is it just makes the people around u want to share less w you, even if u don’t believe it, bc nobody likes to have their every statement said to someone be on record
Niche as in the people in that group grew up together (stuck together) and are still hanging out together which in itself is niche bc as u know not a lot of people would be in that chat or group knowing the full nature
(Again not enough information the a lot of ppl were dropped into that without know the nature lmfao, not every is as much of a pussy or as emotional as you bruh)
Me:
I get that many people are like that but I also want to find people who feel diff cuz there are def plenty more if not the same amount of people who feel diff
Like my point is def see ur perspective and understand it but I think ur overinflating how many people feel the same way
RO:
Peoples opinions on publicizing statements change based on what they say and in what situation
It’s not a dem thing bruh I know progressives that do the same thing it’s about individual consent more than anything
(Back to niches and situations and echo chambers bruh people u know)
Me:
Like I’m not even that political l when I say modern dem it’s the meme term to define that perspective rive you just mentioned
RO:
I may be, but it’s all about situation so it’s not a personal trait is what I’m saying, u treat it as a personal trait which gives u the right to publicize anything bc they already ageee to the whole which isn’t true bc it’s all situational and ppl may change their minds in a different stage of life
Y’all categorize a lot for people who believe categorizing and political parties are useless
(Back to contradiction and nuance being the point see chigamicommandments)
Me:
Yup exactly and you not seeing it as personal trait is the same opinion on the other side of the coin
RO:
Ya but ask others if they think EVERYTHING they say is ok for them to be on blast and they will say it DEPENDS which is what I’m saying
Me:
Yeah and my point is ur idea that the need to think about all that is a result of ur situation and the existing influence from it, the same way u say I’m in the wrong for not doing that
I guess it’s just be straight up in analyze this shit cuz everyone retarded lmfaoo
Anyway yuh I feel like we don’t need to go any further with Thai convo
I’ll call u when we chillin with the bois
Lmk when u back in town
RO:
Ye
Just sayin ppl will have different perspectives as well, like obv mine is a opinion and a perspective but I’m not saying that’s the same as others I’m saying u gotta consider others when u post their opinions or speech it’s not a trait that they are 100% ok with it, it varies hella
Ur perspective that those ppl are ok with that is ALSO a result of such experience and therefore can’t be applied to them so the solution is individual consent, ur acting like mine is the restrictive perspective when ur the one claiming the right to peoples personal statements as ur own to do with as u please, if ur gonna go the perspective route apply it to urself as well
Me:
Lol yup this statement is exactly why I feel like we’re agreeing just the difference in options gives us each a diff conclusion
RO:
Ya I just think asking ppl is the best way to go as to account for their perspective
Me:
Lmao I can never tell if she serious when she says she scared to message a chat but now I think it might actually be real
SH:
HAHA I’m like only half kidding, I get the impression it’s a mildly aggressive group of people
As the only girl (??) in that chat I was like hm maybe I should say something given that this isn’t about any of you
RO:
It’s def harder to say things that aren’t exactly what the group believes, even for me
Jass is there lmao
Wait nvm
SH:
Yeah I also checked to make sure bc I thought so too hahahah
Really the one key thing I wanted to specify (that you also brought up) is the general sentiment about abortion being an easy way out
I’m lucky enough to have never been in the situation, but I can say with 100% confidence that whether it’s a rich white privileged college girl or an 11 year old who got raped by her uncle, not a single person has ever thought “ah rip well guess I’ll get an abortion, easy ✌🏽”
It’s generally a traumatic thing to undergo, but regardless of the circumstance, it’s up to the pregnant woman to decide what’s deemed “necessary”
I was told that in some states, you’ll deal with more negative backlash/restrictions from trying to abort a rape baby then the person who raped them ??? Some wild shit, politicians just aren’t qualified enough to make these calls
So yeah that’s how I interpreted what RO was saying about the general mindset being a lil skewed in that chat, I’m glad everyone (presumably) can agree that this situation sucks and that women should have the right to an abortion, which is good! But it’s also the empathy and understanding of the situation that plays a part in how these laws end up playing out
Me:
Yep I want abortion to be safe, legal, accessible, and rare. All of us prob sound like the same extent of conservatives online but we all agree abortion should be available. With us the general mindset is more of its fucked that it’s normal to think that if you talk about “controversial” opinions, you might mess up future opportunities. Like the same kind of brainwashing is what I feel of people who say shit like it’s not feasible to try to stop rape, liek that’s not the point the point is to do everything you can to stop it
Bolster contraceptives, sex education, and further public safety and mental health. The response to roe v wade overturning really does not sit right me with and I think the mindset is kinda fucked. In the end tho, yeah I feel like we all agree that abortion should not be completely banned anywhere and def not be even compared to the act of rape
I disagree heavy with the opinions of people who try to force rape victims to keep the children but I do understand why they try to, the same way I think religion is dumb but I understand it. I truly believe in cases of rape it should be totally up to the victim and the abuser should have to pay and cover for any consequences, but I also think that once sperm meets egg the timeline has been created for a child to be born, so abortion is not child killing, but it’s still killing in some way or form
And also yeah our convos may always seem heated and aggressive but I can guarantee you if a truly varying opinion comes in real debate will spark not hate, and being even realer idk how some would even be able to react if a girl messages lmfao I think of it as, and want it all to be, quite light hearted discussion
07/29/2022
M:
Also i get we all doin our own shit but i feel like no ones making an effort to plan out different shit
Like drinking can always be spontaneous
But we cant for example just decidw to go camping the day before
Me:
Yee priorities moment rip back to how we all like may diff stuff lmao we gotta take more initiative both in laying out our plans and in keeping with others’ plans. I feel like we either try 2 extremes of how to plan either 1 person does it all or we all do it together, which works for things we all collectively want to do. For particular interests some planning needs to be done away from others, then presented with the pitch for the plan.
M:
The reason why now i wamt someone else to take the initiative on planning shot is bc every time i try to plan shit everyone is down but no one prioritizes the plans i made
And im fucking sick of it
Me:
Like with break stuff I wanted to do a rage room while I was just planning stuff with SH then we had a date set, then we researched places, then we were gonna do it with one of here’s friends for the cheaper but she cancelled. So then the already set shit was brought up to RA jessabelle and u
Exactly it goes back to that hat cuz I’m a fat fuck lmfao
Like when I plan shit it’s usually spontaneous or with the break room or urban shit or some ez shit
With camping I love the outdoors and bbq and chillin at the campfire but we know a camping trip entails more than that for u like hiking or more nature stuff
So then u have a small itinerary of the stuff u want to do, but pitch the plan with the normie bs everyone wants to do
Like this whole thing was about the process of how the plans get laid out to make it more likely for everyone to prioritize other people’s plans
So yeah basically the longer trips harder to plan cuz I feel like most of us just have less interest in those due to time requirement increase for both trip and just planning. Those long trips will prob work out best if u do like a parent plans a trip for family lmao. The main thing causing all of this seems like it’s the fact that half of us prefer the bigger planned trips and the other half prefers spontaneous simple bs
Life just wack like a lot of the times I don’t even want to plan long term shit cuz I know some bs will come up in the shorter term too much shit goin on
So Yee I feel u and I def get why u frustrated, but I think tryna get others to take the initiative to plan something u want to do will make it harder to make it happen, in this case prob better to everyone as a collective
Be like y’all free these days from this to this, then go into the overarching plans, then if everyone down, plan the nitty gritty from there, and as a group we just gotta discuss each others situations more to understand the flake rate chance based on each others lives
Just wanted to send all this shit cuz I feel like I can feel the mindset and frustration, but I also thing this the kinda thing you can’t control so if you start to worry about it too much it’ll grow and become more and more noticeable so I wanna nip it in the bud. Down to plan an actual trip before august, but I hope u see it more of like “my friends lazy and retarded so they don’t prioritize the same shit” and not like a negative negative thing cuz we syndicate
M:
I see it as something we can all improve on
And on the more in depth planning shit, albeit im guilty of not doing that but past experiences make me more hesitant on going that in depth
Me:
Yee exactly that’s the thought process that’s not aligned between us cuz it’s that exact same feeling but the other way of life forcing a flake so why go that in depth. Def agree it’s something we can all improve on and we will. I do think that is being our age, in college, and having a bunch of shit to do make this a harder thing to improve with us all at the same time tho
We finna get there 1 luv 1 syndicate
M:
The shit we were sayin in the gc made me remember some shit
In scouts we were planning this huge backpacking trip and we were looking for adult leaders to come on the trip with us
There was this one indian cunt who volunteered so long as he would be able to be on a work call 3hrs a day
Dont be like him
08/12/2022
BIRTH OF THE SYNDICATE MILESTONE TIMELINE
In snapdicate (og)
M:
I checked the eddy stash
Theres 6eft
I understand that some of yall are investore
I have toldN that non syndicatees will pay 10$ per
And half the profit will go to the syndicatee
But should a syndicate member purchase one k
For personal use, it shall he 2$
*be
I believe myself to be morally straight as a boy scout, and thus i will only distribute to my close friends
And if i distribute to my close friends who distribute to others, this will remain a purely trust based economy.
Alcohol business moment
Me:
Yezzzir we bool imma just buy like 1 if there’s 6 left to try the 🅿️otency lmao
Soem good eddy selling guidelines
Also lmk last night alc cost lol
M:
Oof drunko mode
Ima j do 34/4
Me:
Ok so I zend $8.50 yee
AR:
Okayy i neeed explanation on this cuz im retarded. Can we just not care about money when sharing shit among friends. I have always held this opiniom that there should be no money or pay back stuff among frriends when literally doing substances together? I wanna share shit without having to keep track of it and vice versa.
Like in general im talking
For food weed alc
Anything
My opinion tho lmk
Me:
Nah we get and that’s the goal but at this point it’s not too realistic
AR:
I see okay
Me:
We all got way too varying cash flows and availabilities
AR:
Ohh you right
Me:
Diff resources and all that life moment
AR:
Wait i was tweaking cuz sc people have shit about food. I think atleast for food we should just buy each other shit without thinking much sbout it
Me:
Like we’ll get there by not caring about some stuff here and there but for now I think we just keep with with if u want people to pay back u ask and it’s good
Yee like it’s def not like we have to always be paying back for this and that for food we usually just get each other next time
AR:
Okay i understand now
Me:
Or just buy food 1 day another buys alc another day
AR:
Right
Me:
Yee def chillo mode wit it
AR:
It just that i dont like keeo track of how much one is spending on the grouo anf so on
It shoould be natural and booling
But i do undersyand now
RA:
Yessir we’re still tryna find our footing with the money shit I feel like
AR:
Like food and weed and alc ill always get that for ya no matter what. I wanna bool without anxiees. But now i realixr it could just br me tweaking
Me:
Yeah we don’t care about the actual amounts and all that how much is spent on the group just when he homies need some of the contributions back it’s like early business reinvesting
AR:
I realize
Bro yall so much bettr at straight explaing shit to me thankd
Thankd
Thanks
RA:
Ya man
Mom
AR:
Mommy
RA:
🥵
Me:
Lmfao Yee yo dada
RA:
Yeee if u do anxiety about the money thing tho still just worry about the next day and enjoy the moment cuz I feel u AR
AR:
I be tweaking tho so call me out on shit. Usually i dont have an understanding of whats going on
RA:
Oh we will
AR:
And it feels good to hsvr poeole keep in check
Thanks
RA:
Yessir this is what syndicate all abouttt
AR:
Fr
Me:
Lmfao yessir also let us know when u just don’t understand or stuff too we in it together
AR:
Idk why but i can just straight ask yall anything without feeling much stress
I def will
Adk
Ask
Me:
Yee I guess just bringing stuff up in itself isn’t normal to a good amount of people
AR:
Like we bool for life
Me:
At least I know for sure with some Indian parent mode lmao
AR:
Yeah and also im actually on yhr spectrum so i dont understand the same way some othrt people do
Me:
Our family wasn’t on that talk about ur shit stuff like fucking drugs led me to all that lmfao
AR:
Lmfaoooooooooooo
RA:
Drugs bad 😡
AR:
I felt that bro like half of my tweaks are go e cuz of lsd
Nah bro
Drugs gooooooood
RA:
Cheat codes of human experience
Drugs bad because of how good they are for u
I mean what
Me:
It’s a shortcut
RA:
Yeah
Me:
But like any trail
If u fuckup on the shortcut
U get lost
Maybe die
AR:
Nah it def is a shortcut when you actuslly retarded
Me:
Straight path safest path
AR:
Yeah
Lmfaoooooooo
RA:
But hardest as well
AR:
Yeah true
RA:
Reality is for people that can’t face drugs 😎
Me:
Nah it’s all the same lmao
RA:
No
Ur gay
AR:
No u
Do some lsd
And become sttaight
Lmfao
Me:
It takes drugs to fix shit which in manys senses is already fucked up. But dealing whith fuckrd up shit is already fucked so drugs help LMFAOOOO
Where the hard shit comes is the only diff
AR:
Wdym
Idk its been way easiesr tho since i stopped weed
So i give you that RA
But lsd still busting
Me:
Like if it was cheat code then all the mfs who did this shit in the 60s and 70s would be crackedddd but they just retarded boomers lmao
They just enjoyed strolling the shortcut
Didn’t make use of it
Can reach the same destination without drugs
Just how u do and who u are
AR:
Yep
10000% true
RA:
Knowledge that was learned but not applied
(My later comments: Knowledge that could have been learned but wasn’t)
RA:ƒ
Iz a tool
A tool not for everyone
But a tool that can be used
Got lazy lmao prob not gonna put whole chats in the commandments anymore
Takeaways: psychs aren’t a cheat code, they’re a shortcut. Like any shortcut on a trail, if you mess up the shortcut you can get lost or worse. Straight path safest path, high risk high reward in 2 sides of the same coin
01/07/23
*talking about Thor love and war or whatever deleted scenes*
Me: Jews infiltrated marvel to make superheroes cringe and gay instead of symbols of hope and peace
*talking about Thor love and war or whatever deleted scenes*
R: why is it always about Jews brooo
Me:
It’s always about Jews because of history and the present as well as simple observational analysis
Mel Gibson 💪
Weve been done racism already
Sand niggers street shitters bug eaters and sister fuckers
But when somehow saying the richest ppl in the world are a certain demographic is “insulting” and “antisemitic” like bitch you have everything tf u crying about
Literal history alone can show you who has been “controlling” things from the sidelines whether you wanna call it church or you wanna call it rothschilds and Rockefellers or the Clinton’s and Epstein or Reagan and LBJ or JFK and Abraham Lincoln shits stays been done be is fucked nigga
With Kanye everyone went against him cuz he went against the Jews but they did the opposite of what the agenda wants ppl to do and undertand a niggas fucking side of it lol
His literal life experience is of ppl and handlers in the industry relatively controlling how celebrities act and think, and after looking at the names and backgrounds of all this people they all happen to be Jewish, same with many megacorporations’ executive structures and so one, might not be the case that all Jew bad like obviously, but the evidence and ratio of who is who is def unbalanced enough to justify questions
And when question don’t get answered they just get ignored or shut down or called racist there is probably something or someone who doesn’t want the answer to be easily obtainable
https://www.indiatimes.com/amp/culture/who-we-are/these-are-the-13-families-in-the-world-that-apparently-control-everything-from-politics-to-terrorism-257642.html
AR: I mean full diversity is how it prolly would be in ideal world. Reality, its just happens that a certain people ended up getting in power and those people turn out to be a certain race. People are people. People are people with or withojt, no matter their race as long as power is in play race wouldn't matter.
Me: Only thing is this is all concept liek thsi is ideal in our heads but real life is scientific method we need to observe what has happened to move forward we can’t just full turnaround or reset irl like we can in our minds
Unless every single person agrees on the same thing, which won’t happen irl
AR: I dont think diversity is ideal or even plausiable in this context
This is real, so ofc the data is different
Jews based on history have been in powrr
Me: Diversity is ideal but not our medias definition of it not just race but full backgrounds how ppl think full diversity
Philosophical diversity
Race diversity is also useless
If everyone was the same
AR: Oh i mean race wise
I mean people in power happen to be jews because they well, they had have dkne something to get here. In ideal world anyone could anywhere
But you right aboht rwalworld and scientmethod
Me: Cuz race has differences in philosophy but that’s just cutting off at a lower point of factoring
Like exactly like the past is the past is get may have done whatever to get here
But we are here
And they are doing what they doing and the people i power clearly not doing what’s best for us
AR: Yeah they dont represent everybody else like in an ideal world, im ttryna show the flaw by relating perfect diversity
Me: But how does that relate to the topic
AR: Why is always gotta be jews
It doesnt
Me: Ah I see it’s the debating on conceptual or the irl
It don’t gotta be
But I’m literalllt talking politics in thsi chat not really philosophy
What’s has been happening and what will happen and how to stop it
AR: Ah i dont get politics Lmao
I see ohhh
Me: Cuz how else can we tie our philosophy into irl lmao ptherwise we all just stay in our heads
Eventually propel will think we crazy
If we stay in our head too much too long
AR: Frrrrr Makes sense Philosophy idealized I guess?
Me: Realized
Idealized is still a mental image
AR: Like in this contexr how poltically you would go about restoring power? Realized**
Me: Stop letting confressmen to use the stock Met
Fire them if the interest rates and shit increase more than 5%
Get rid of the fbi, cia, and federal reserve banking systems
Better checks and balances, modernized law structures (my shit about version control for law, no laws bill longer than a certain word count, long enough times to read things that need to be passed, better age limits and time allowed in office)
Make the pentagon actually pass an audit for once
AR: How with race tho, laws applay to all people same i think
Ig the problem is that jews or whoever is up at too dont know shit for the people at bottom
Me: “The Jews” card is just observation it’s really uncanny and against the nature of statistics of how many Jewish people really are in powerful positions
Politics in Israel Jerusalem Ukraine
And a little research shows which families responsible and who causes it
Democrats, rothschilds, all the Ukraine donations, fake Covid numbers, the war on drugs, the anti communist shit, everything for the past hundred years plus
AR: Free speeech and ez accessible info
And agreed true data
Where there is a global or local agreement of some truth
Going back to news fighting i mean Like no fake new fr
Me: The fact in itself that our govt was caught trying to hid info about th Biden laptop, spread false new about trump and competitors, and try to push certain ideas is a problem
From there we can piece stuff together
It’s just where you choose to start seeing thigns and braking thigns down
The term conspiracy theories was coined by the cia to make it harder to spread truth via journalism
And Obama made it legal for new to lie to us “to protect the people”
Which is why new isn’t journalism now it’s political comedy and entertainment
AR: Right exactly it seems government control should be reduced
Idk if the common man can do much about the elites other than to revolt and start from scratch
Socities have been failing and then rising again
Like a new foundation is usually needed looking back
Me: Yep, that’s where we are philosophically, now what do you do knowing we will die within 100 years and that toe of change takes longer than that
And that’s when you start thinking about politics and what can be down irl realistically
AR: I understand Knapsack anaology Lmao Loosley 100 years
Our gen is pprolly gonna face a fall of a society i think lmao
Atleast 1, Hopefully not oura
Like laws, info, securty, rights cease to be protectes
Me: Lmao we already part of it has been happening liek in history it seems like a single event but the stocks falling good prices going up all that is part of the process we just priviliged enough to not be affected too much at this point, hella people homeless now, lost kids cuz of trnagender shit etc
Been happening
Perspective moments
AR:Yeah. But whos to say we wont be so blessed in future. Thats why we need like global restrictions and uniform laws
Like that stop people from making decisions for a bigger group than thwy
But some intriguing tpoic, Amma read up on tbis
Me: Yep like another thing to add to the list up there of improvements is any place with a pollution over 100,000 has its own voting system, so big cities don’t control a whole states vote
Romans or someone did that in the past lmao
AR: Density problem is real
Scarcity of resources when densed up
Me: Density problem is real, but it’s still an observation
What I was talking about that other night wiht the movies
Cuz we made density problems occur for both good and bad
Necessity and scarcity and shit
AR: Yeah but your solution of small governing states or cities
Oh yeah true
Wait no
Density is bad
We couldnt control our density
Goes back to Thanos
Me: Yeah, but who can afford space, so ideally density bad, but we have it rn
Theoretically tho lol
AR: That why space expo and all that
Thats prolly the next revolution
Need resources and we will axhaust the ones already here
Me: yep Elon Musk moments
AR: I hope that propells like work and laws
And other stuff cant really think but everybkdy fights for reseouces
Obvs but maybe thats the thteshold for our species, to get over infinity and aquire more than sufficient resources
Or atleast thats the way we are headed i see
A lil phiolosophy lmao
Me: Yep now those are interesting conceptual topics like how long will it take us to become spacefaring civilization and all that, when you discuss theory about things that can be taken literally, either it’s buildup to more understanding, or it’s escapism, trying to keep thinking in a realm you already understand completely
But that also goes into that shit Umm Sonderlust
AR: I mean its a loose connection to like race and political but a ig i meant like maybe more than 100 years
Me: Nah it’s still real shit just directly to what was down earlier in thsi chat
Like context wise
Everything loops back modeeeee
AR: Like in 100 years yes we ll be here and well deal which what well have to deal with but legacy wise and history wise all chages dont stick. Any polcies or rules they make now whos to say they wont change later
AR: Fr looooop moment
So as humanity expands which we are
Idk but some good shut
Me: Sonderlust vs niggalust
*short break*
R: (Reply to me: Eventually propel will think we crazy)
We are just a lil. But we just gotta tranlaste. This is summ I’ve been tryna say just never got the words to come out in convos cuz I be forgetting lolMy point still stands. Instead of Jews being in power it’s gonna be Indians now 😇
Me: Nah uve said it before but it’s that shit with the agreed upon baselines on the we been know that shit like is it worth bringing up if it’s a baseline the problems lie once delving
Anything that goes into the yeah something is bad but everyone is a lil or everyone does that soemtimes or whatever is the pc culture reassurance shit
If u tryna not be comfortable escape comfortable thought processes
R: Look at me I said a lot of shit but what did it all really mean
AR: Staying npc is comfrot so i see qhat your sating
R: Past 6 months
Yea
Where u know better
That’s stagnation
AR: Yeah
Honestly stagnation boring
Lmaao
Me: Yee yee but cuz you’ve grown, that growth itself becomes a background process as you grow up, less of the oh I’ll learn as I move thru shit cuz of necessity and situations
Cuz that in itself is stagnation at the next level
AR: Stagnate long enough u start to compare to people who have stagnated more
R: Past 6 months was just red pill rage, woman shit, alcohol over a dumb reason, moving back home, nice guy problems, and becoming an adult To sum it up
Me: Or don’t and keep moving up
Yee yee cuz I’m the next 6 month you can’t say this again
R: Basically for me self improvement but not the main thing in my life
Me: Which is basically what I’ve said for the past 4-6 “6 month” periods
R: The way I see it
Me: Uve*
R: If I’m not cringing myself a year later
AR: Self improve for now not for future, you cant know how ull be then
R: I’m not moving up
AR: You only know how you been and how you ate
Are
Me: If u don’t make urself non cringe asap then what u doin lmao
R: Lmao
AR: Fr fr
Me: If u know u don’t wanna be a way and u still do it what is happening even
R: Sounding dumb > afraid not sounding dumb
Me: Yeeety
AR: Exactly
R: Okay but fr yall
AR: Well thats jus loss of control
R: We all gotta touch grass more
AR: Me: If u know u don’t wanna be a way and u still do it what is happening even
. This i mean
But sense of security and knapsack
For me
Fixed
Me: Start speaking for urself more homie, take reality into account
AR: I did
Me: Perspective and all that
AR: Hehe
Me: Lamp RA
In response to the touch grass
Not u
AR: Oh ahahha
Lmao
Me: Like when a statement liek that pops into the head
Delve into it
What does it really mean
AR: God dauym last 6 months been good months of conditioning and lokey recovering from trip myself
Me: Why do we need to touch grass more and doing what would constitute to touching grass more
R: True
We all need to start going to places to book
Like ax throwing and shit
AR: Downnn
What happena if you dont touch grass
Lmao
Me: Yeah like outdoors shit like that activities and all that is dialog stuff I haven’t gone out of my way to do with y’all cuz I’ve been doing all that normie shit my whole life with family and relatives
With the homies we can just bool
R: That’s what I meant
AR: Oh
Yeah
Now i realize
Hahah
Me: But def down to go do it if y’all any but like shits costs money and I’m more inclined to do it with the people who can pay for me lmao
Cuz I’m the end it’s still entertainemnt
R: My messages be sending slow
AR: That fuxked
Ngl
Me: When we need to solve how we gonna live for the next 20 years
AR: Lmao
Me: That’s just how I feel about basically any outdoor activity and shit
R: Good thing N the corpo mf of the group
AR: Understandable
Lmaoooo
R: I’m still tryna figure out if I’m street kid or nomad
Me: All of the above
AR: Me: That’s just how I feel about basically any outdoor activity and shit
Change it not a good qay to think tho imo
Me: Nah
Lmao
AR: Lmaoo exactly
R: Me: It may not be as focused on soemthing or people but it’s gotten we why I’ve gotten thru that mindset I’m not gonna change it now
Gotten me what I’ve gotten thru*
AR: Nah no need to explain
R: Fr
AR: Thats thebpoint
R: I’m tryna develop that mindset myself so I don’t gotta worry about that shjt later
I might be there already
So hopefully I can learn from y’all
AR: We worry to much about being able to explain so we can recreate
Like ideas about life and shit and how to be
But lmao some things are just straight subjective
R: Just gottaaaaaa beeeee
Bruce Lee
AR: You know it
R: Formless
Shapeless
Like my penis
AR: Yes
Me: Nigga Lee
Gas dick
AR: Liquid gas dick
Voice chat booling soon btw?
Me: Also discord like 25 min lmao
15 min
R: Me: It may not be as focused on soemthing or people but it’s gotten we why I’ve gotten thru that mindset I’m not gonna change it now
Was that mindset made through shit? Or from shit
Me: Cleaning up lunch shits
R: Or from reflection?
Or all of the above
Me: R: Was that mindset made through shit? Or from shit
That’s not even mindset I feel thsi just how I feel about my mindset
R: I like to travel 🤠
Me: Lgbtq ass lmfaoooo
Living in between defintions
Tranny
R: Yee haw
Me: Philosophical tranny
AR: Thats a good word
Lmao
R: There we go now we have translated our bullshit to real friendship shit
YA FEEEL Me: AR: No need for translation just waiting on saying
I been feeling
We all been
R: Yea I know u been 😏
AR: End goal
What can out of shits matters
Subjectivley
Me: Feelin this dick
AR: Me:
R: This is why I’m either nomad or street kid
Me: Or an npc
Lmfoaooooooo
R: All of the above cuz I’m already the avatar bitch
AR: Lmaooooo
R: We’ll
Well
If I’m the Npc
Then I’m the greatest NPC of them all HOE
And I have infiltrated
Me: Free guy
Ryan Reynolds’s moments
AR: Definition dont match context for me, had to get over that npc software
Upgrade th le ai
Me: Become ai npc
AR: Add more qbits
R: Okay y’all just some cs gay ass hoes
AR: So you are you nigger
R: YOOOO
yea u right
I was tryna coo out
Cop out
AR: Y do you think u said that cuz u understood it
Me: Lmaooo
AR: Lmao
R: I didn’t hoe
U assuming
AR: U a cs niggy
As we are
R: Shit bro I’m glitching
AR: Im assuming ur gay
R: If u want me to be 😏
Me: Sounds like some underground gay nigga lingo I’m too straight to undertand
Lmfaooooooo
R: I’m on some BPD shit
AR: Nah im just tryna make you feel like your gay
So that you do shit for me
R: ?
AR: Whaaat
Me: 21 can you do sum for meeeeeee
AR: Huuuh
R: Huh
AR: Lmaooooo
Me: Can you talk to my pussy ex for meeeeee
R: AR the more u try to make me think I’m gay the more u gotta understand homosexual nature
Which makes unfay
Gay
Cuz u thinking about men
AR: Nah im good
Im straight
R: R u
AR: I like to think about women
R: 😉
AR: U go on 7 day benders
R: Women
AR: Surpired your ass be striaght when you bool up
R: Has men in it
AR: 7 days 7 nigga running thru u
R: Ur lucky my wifi slow
AR it’s okay
AR: Nah you lukcy im been slow
R: U just have to find the right man
AR: Lmaooo
A wo man
R: Lmao
AR: With boobs
R: This why u my little brother
AR: Boobies
Me: Damn step bro
AR: Fr
Me: Wyd
R: Goldman it N
AR: Assuming fsmily alrefy
Step by step hro
R: Gahdamn it
AR: Lmaoo
R: *
Me: Lmao loops your cycle of how you avail gay Niggas can be called gay once another nigga has anything to say about it
Need a better defense for harder gay situations
Syndicate trip the gay bar let’s goooo
AR: Nah just need to call gaybahrder
Your gat
R: True
How u avail gay*
What does that mean
Me: Lmao avoid
Autocorrect moments
AR: Fr
Me: Syndicate trip to the gay bar like magic schoolbus let’s goo
AR: Gay niggas from outerspace
R: Just gotta stand up for myself or just subtlety be like I ain’t with that gay shit without embarrassing the other person
Me: Or harshen how you do it
AR: I mean nah you gay to me am bout to end your god dauym sexuality
R: Boundaries
Me: Straight up one sentence damn you got some underlying sexuality questioning going on, I’m not going to delve into it cuz I know who I am, Ty and bye bye
AR: Gays gotta stick to gays and not trying to convert
R: Wait what
Am confused
O shit
AR: Thats the rwaosning
Lmaoo
Bigus booliusaxiimus
Big booty
Me: Confused as in gay?
Like queer
?
AR: Oh huh
What
Wtf
Waiaoaoaoa
R: Y’all
AR: Lmaoo
R: I think
Me: Like the q in lgbtq?
R: I think I’m
I think immmmmm
nah not today fuck allat
Me: Aight fucking damn lmfao imma wash sun dish and disorderly like 10 min
R: Twink of the syndicate
Me: Discord
Dispo odors
We voooolw
Volvo
AR: Stop the twink and start the tink
R: Bro
AR: Yesiiir am oon
R: Gotta figure out my sexuality
AR: Ping when u in voice chat
R: LMAO
Or this is all symptoms of Molly
AR: Bro what is there to figute out lmao maximum make it binary molly dont make u gay or straight
Pick one
There two option infront
Me: I’m gay with heavily homophobic and heterosexual aspects to my persona that can be dictated by the brightness of the moon and position of the stars
R: Isn’t there that whole bisexual shit
Wtf
AR: Exactly you gotta be that kinda gay
Is it
R: OH LMAO
Me: Lmfaoooooo
AR: Im gay for the moon
And the starts
R: Nah but fr that’s funny as fuxk
AR: Thats for sure
R: Got me good
I think I just wanna be special or some shit
Main character syndrome mode
AR: But RA be on some astrological shit so he may get it
R: ?
Get the gay?
AR: R: Main character syndrome mode
. This
Me:
AR: R: I think I just wanna be special or some shit
M
This i mean
Lmao
Humor stats increased
R: I get that shit from my mom
Me: Indian nigga minutes
AR: Lmaooooooooooooo
Me: People pleasing minutes
Congoleramtized religion moments
Indeoctination moments
Npc moments
AR: Why u gotta please pople when you could do it to you
Lmao
R: Gotta talk to my dad more
AR: Find yo balnce
Kapsack problems cs anologiea run our psych
Chsnge my mind
Lmao
Me: Lmao true but other way around
AR: Hahah
Me: Algorithm and philosophy is us translating how our brain works into words or computer language
Brain
We just animals
AR: Fr
Me: Same with the psychosis this. Like you don’t act a way cuz u have psychosis you have psychosis cuz you’ve been diagnosed acting a certain way
AR: Lmao
Me: Not schizophrenia but seems like it which may be why he delves into that questioning too
AR: Yeah, derealization maybe
What is derealization to you
Operate on what you know and what is shared with to you. Any more than that your bound to just confuse yourself
R: Derealization is like when everything doesn’t feel like real. Like everything feels far away. That could be disassociating too
Me: Same with the psychosis thing like you don’t act a way cuz u have psychosis you have psychosis cuz you’ve been diagnosed acting a certain way
Had it just now when y’all started bout this. Had to walk to my car
AR: Kinda vague for me but reality can only be in you and what you experience outside
R: Am outside at great mall atm
Like some type of anxiety
AR: See then its not psychosis
Walk yourself to those conclusions
R: I did use to have full on panic attacks but learned to control them
AR: Good
Dont worry about not being you
Even in panic your are still you
R: I’ll keep fighting that’s not the problem
But I’m tired of having to swing in the dark ya feel me
AR: Ye
R: Need to understand myself better and what’s going on. 2023 gotta be different
AR: Oh it will be siir
I think its bout time we move to the next level of operating
02/12/23
In chat:
Life be crazy progression be when it goes from seeing it after the fact, to seeing it while it happens, to seeing it before it happens
Seeing it after is normal observation and course correction
Seeing it during is being able to see/cut thru the bullshit in real time, like what psychedelics do
Seeing it before is a lot more convoluted cuz u can never truly know for sure
But at some point you just do
Seeing it before has steps within im than the other two as well
More steps* both for making it happen, and for processing it
the one worse thing with figuring thigns out in hindsight like the seeing it after thing, is the trauma shit. Like childhood stuff the fact that you can notice it now, but cuz it happened in the past and you can’t change anything now, that kind of helplessness can get annoying
Guiding principles we set are concrete life goals, we all have a similar outlook and expectations, shit will flow and connect easier
If we set our similarities in oh I’m a star sign or oh we think the same, or oh I like the same people as you
It’s the superficial face value normal relationship you call acquaintances not friends
AR: I see but its like how do i make some not feel like just an aquaintance? I do wamt to be more than just that with people
Work
Lmao relationship moments going out of way to evoke emotions
Usually just the extended thought for someone and being there does that
Doing it with a will changes it cuz people can tell when u being real or just tryna get by
The level of being able to tell depends on the tier of person, but body language over time is a good teller, simply who looks to who during convos more, things like that can loosely show thought patterns over time
Subconsciously being able to tell
Most people have the disconnected subconscious and conscious actually almost everyone
AR: Its kinda cool tho feels like i always knew that shit
AR: Like body language to read when undedtsndjng oeople
AR: I would only be worried about how to do itnmyself to get peole to undertsand
Yuuup hopefully most of the shit seems liek that and y’all usually say that which is good cuz everything like isn’t stuff to know but to just understand and do, the back burner shits, it’s always been known but not applied and that’s the difference in irl
Everything is everything every scope comes into play with every statement we still just in college brains still developing and I’m still the youngest at that too. We all just speak our life experiences and descriptions to convey our emotions or concepts
Reality is the most important check and balance
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